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Krystal (Krystopher) Cross
Artist | Hobbyist | Varied
United States
Roses Are Red And Violets Aren't Blue; Don't Be A Jerk And We'll Get Along Too.

I'm generally a nice girl to talk to, but hurt me once and then I'm the biggest bitch out there.
I tend to stick to myself now a days, but I enjoy the quiet that comes with it.

  • Mood: Joy
  • Reading: Skype Messages
  • Watching: nothing in particular
  • Playing: nothing
  • Eating: wheat thins
  • Drinking: water
Finally better 
  • Mood: Hope
  • Listening to: Wake me up when September ends - Green Day
  • Reading: Facebook Chat messages
  • Watching: nothing in particular
  • Playing: nothing
  • Eating: blueberry Greek yogurt
  • Drinking: sprite
I kno i used my DA journal for things too personal, BUUUUUT~

I few weeks Ago i learned a few things:
Effexor XR is an evil drug, but a blessing in disguise. Without this experience I would have continued down the wrong path that would have led to my premature death.  
But instead Effexor drove me to insanity, I broke and instead of jumping in front of that FedEx truck my friend was driving I turned and asked my management for help. 
It's harder to ask for help than it is to jump. Let me tell you. When your body is screaming to end it all and you're standing on a dock shaking the last thing you want to do is turn around step off the dock and say "hey, i need to go to a hospital. I need help"
I did it. I ended up in SMMC and I found out i  wasn't depressed. I'm just Bipolar and my doctors were quacks for not testing me since it ran in my family.
Plus she should have taken m off the medication the day before when I had seen her and was complaining of psychosis like side effects.   It was so relieving to have someone listen to me and not just smile and say I was just imagining things. That someone else finally saw past my clever disguise and  noticed i wasn't really a human being, just a lifeless thing trying to keep up the facade of who i was. but as soon as the Effexor detox began and the right meds came into my system I became lively and myself again. The scary shadows went away and so did the god awful  screams.  I perked up and went to group therapies and even talked. Now I have hope I can continue to get better. 
Fuck you and thank you Effexor.
  • Mood: Uneasy
  • Reading: The Forest(Closed Group)
  • Watching: Too Cute!
  • Playing: nothing
  • Eating: Banana Chips
  • Drinking: Cherry Coke
I'll go on a social network and see faces that make me want to vomit. 
and the memories that follow are my own personal hell.
It cripples me inside and out, all the while I seem outwardly calm.

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DampeTraise Featured By Owner Jun 13, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks for the watch!~
VioletIntensivTrauma Featured By Owner Jun 24, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Creme it's me
DampeTraise Featured By Owner Jun 25, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Nice to see ya on here, Trauma~
VioletIntensivTrauma Featured By Owner Jun 25, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Yeee. I'm gonna miss our shenannigans though
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shadowlord19 Featured By Owner Jun 3, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Happy Birthday. 
VioletIntensivTrauma Featured By Owner Jun 10, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you
BeautifullyCute Featured By Owner Apr 19, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks so much for watching me! :D
VioletIntensivTrauma Featured By Owner Apr 20, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
np. Your stuff is sooooooo cute~ Kawaii Grin Face Emoji 
shadowlord19 Featured By Owner Jun 3, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Happy Birthday.
VioletIntensivTrauma Featured By Owner Jun 5, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank You
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